The Shy Individual (pt. 3)

It is a very complex system which creates the Shy Individual. Know that it is a prison. A prison which seems inescapable but it isn’t. Know that guilt are its prison bars. But more important though guilt works in its confines a twisted view of “Love” is the authority which sentences the Shy Individual.

A lifetime is spent in this prison in the attempt to wipe out a sentence which is a mere fabrication. 

The actual crime is believing the necessity for the sentence.

Picture a person whose heart races with the thought of having to read a report in class. Preach a sermon in Church. Stand up, introduce themselves to a group. Resist a bully in public. And more accounts can be assembled which fit the demo.

Some of the elements are; Anxiety, fear, disablement, the brain, that spark of genius which normally is there to be dispensed cannot now be marshaled forth. Okay, so then, right off the bat, let us place some themes under scrutiny……

A sense of unworthiness. Not good enough.

Well, then this means that “association” is working here, yes. Working so powerfully that one is crippled. The normal reaction will not surface. Another thing we see here is that “the mind is keeping a pact”. Yes, honoring a pact out of the past. A time-honored promise is being kept at the expense of the public assessment one will be straddled with. Listen, one (me/you), we are deliberately humiliating self. And this is a medicinal type of an arrangement. IE This is a Redemption Drama. Look up my posts on Redemption Dramas (R.D.’s). R.D.’s proceed out of our Psyche when the Innate Void is compelled to be intuited. The Void is harrowing and it lies within every living human being. Hang in there, don’t leave now, we will make this material clearer. But first…..

Perhaps you will connect with this; An Event occurred early in our lives.

We need not find out exactly what that event was, contrary to popular belief. All we must dissect is how it was able to put us into this pact of self-humiliation and torture. We need to outfit ourselves with building blocks of perspective and understanding. That is my little job, what I get paid for, to supply the “Big Guns”.

We need to put things into perspective.

Our loneliness is built out of our most secret agonies. 

It is then when words fail us. The horror lies at the entryway yet we falter for words to describe it, to give it form. But we shall give it a face yet. It is the Void which we all as Sons of Adam enter this life with. But this is not enough, for me to say that. So hold my hand while I detail for you how our Psyche responds to it and makes pacts which cover our fear of being, discovering self as “unlovable”, and what we will not stop at to erase, to bury this potential thought from memory itself.

Please return for pt.4

Thanks for being here.

I can be reached at;, and, and at Facebook as Miguel Angel Oquendo. (Mickey, of Huachuca City, Az.)

Or you can contact these folk; Rev. Bob Schembre (Missouri), or Ministerio APG  (My Brother, Pastor Angel L. Oquendo, Spanish and English, Florida) both on Facebook.



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